What does it mean to lose touch with the values and languages of our ancestors?
To what extent can we choose our own racial identity?
Mixed Feelings is a one-person show being developed by multiracial Asian Australian actor, writer, and vocalist, Stephanie Jack. Incorporating monologue, video projection, songs in Chinese dialects, and kung fu-inspired movement, the show is a deep dive into the confusion of living between cultures. In particular, it takes a tongue-in-cheek look at the complexities of being an Asian/white female, fetishised by both the East and West, and not fully belonging in either.
By delving into the intersections between Stephanie’s life and the lives of her mother and grandmother, Mixed Feelings aims to shine a light on overlooked multigenerational Asian female narratives. It also grapples with (half) white privilege, and the chasms that differing racial identities can create between generations.
In 2019 Stephanie moved to China for a year to study Mandarin and kung fu. Her experiences and revelations were documented online via a YouTube channel. The use of video projection in Mixed Feelings will draw heavily on vlog culture, cancel culture, and Stephanie’s experiences in the digital realm.